dancing with my might

heys. went for cheerleading competition today. hahax. tiring snd LOUD. gd. lolx. credits to luo er for my hair, claire for my make-up and miss lini for my mascara. yup. thn we went out and everyone was like looking at us lah. i only know me and nicole keep 'jimming' people who stared. haha. he had to go for family dinner. got angry over it lah cuz i really not going for piano lesson with my make-up alone. i know it's unreasonable. lyk wat he said, even luo er and nic know the situation but why can't i. how i wished to tell him tt he was super important to me. although to the world he might be one person, but to one person he means the world. i was on the verge of tears lah. cuz i wanted to share the joy with him but it turned out like tt. he always say tt i dun think. i think and think and think and found myself making one big round. i couldn't forget my family situation. it kind of makes me afraid to know to like to love another person. my only wish when i was young was to make the world happier for everybody. it has always been my wish but i saw it drifting apart until i could not get hold of it anymore. i'm afraid to know one more family. tt's why i didn't want to get so close to his family. i need time. lots of time. to heal the hurt i have been feeling for the past years...